lördag 15 augusti 2009

Everybody is doing their best and it's beautyful

Fridays we all in our company work from our homes, we are fortunate to do so. It gives us possibility to sleep an extra hour, go jogging or walking in the morning, or whatever we like to do, without setting the alarm too early or stress away in the morning. It's lovely.

At lunchtime I can also chose to take a walk in our nearby situated wooded area. I did so yesterday - really nice. To just go in my own space, breath and not think. And watch ideas popping up in my head or in my body. That's freedom for me, and happiness. Also to walk exactly as fast or as slow I feel for, in that moment. Stop for a while, admiring insects, butterflies, a nice cloud or the landscape in the different views as it appears in my walk. Let it all be seen, experienced but not neccessarily expressed. It all just passes through me, and leaves me with gratitude and new growing thougths. Sometimes even insightful ones ;).

The walking area is next to a larger courtyard which has been almost abandoned for years and years. Nothing could be done until the owner would die, because that was the condition and clearance for the towns community to start restoring the whole place. So maybe she, the owner, has passed away. Because a lot of excavating machines where in the area and something was going on. Interesting. I will go there for sure, when we citizens are welcome there. Or maybe sooner, who doesn't want to se it in the change as well.

On my way back I was in an even better mood then when I left home. The sun, the fresh air and the walking really did me good. I passed and met som people. A girl slowly walked, seemingly being deep in her thoughts, two older men discussing in, a for me foreign language, an energetic teenager jogging towards me and passing, a woman on her bike, seriously looking at me and then in her horizon.

And I saw how all people, not just them, are really doing their best in their lives as it is, right now. How we all are. My sisters and brothers, my parents, my friends, my children, my fellow workers, my neighbours, everybody in this area of Sweden, in all the towns here, in Scandinavia, in Europe, yeah let's not make the list too long - the whole wide world. And how beautyful it is.

Then I started thinking, hmm - If I tell anybody these thoughts - I will sooner or later be told, what about the rapists, the murderers, the abusers - the people I sometimes puzzled, sometimes sad and scared read about in the news paper. Whatever they are doing. Are they doing their best? It's an almost overwhelming, a bit contradictive, depressing thought. Yes, hard to melt/accept. Didn't they feel that they had a choice to do something else, something better, anything, but not the worst? (I couldn't tell about that). I think they could'nt. Sad to say, in that moment it was their best. But the even more important issue about all actions that we consider as bad, really ugly and evil - what is the best WE can do about it? First, we can definiately condemn their actions. But to stay in that, where does it lead us? Really nowhere or not very far. We need to see, that we cannot condemn the persons even though we consider them as monsters. They are not monsters, even though their actions has become monstrously evil. But still, it's of great importance to see the difference between the human being and the actions.

One person can't save the whole world. But no person is separate from the rest of the world. It can seem like it, but the truth is that we all are connected. We do put criminals behind bars, or fight their crimes and violence with more violence, some solutions more accepted and neccessary than the other, today. But everybody knows, it doesn't mean they, the criminals and their crimes doesn't exist anymore. They do. For sure. Also they will exist until we realize that the life is trying to show us something. Not until we care to see what it is, it will continue to charge and nurish us in destructive ways, personally or collectively, with whatever unpleasant feelings we can get in our days. If we can't start collectively, we can always start personally. And there are a lot of collective great movements, that are growing stronger for each day. I think you feel what is right for you. It differs depending on who you are. What you will contribute with. It can be silent, it can be loud, it can be colorful or in mild nyanses. You know, when you listen inwards - what is right for you - what is the best you want to achieve for yourself and for all today 2009, almost 9 biljons of friends.

Because the best we can do for ourselves is also the best we can do for each other, everybody.

And If we feel that we some days/times are not doing our best, we still are, and we can be honest. And if we're not honest in public it's not that important, the most important is that we are honest, true with ourselves, in our hearts.

Some complementary shower-thoughts ;). We can absolutely think, NO I did NOT do my best, I know I can/should do better and also, THEY could/should do better. Maybe even a lot better. In the back of our heads we can perhaps see or hear some thinking-patterns buzz, from the Jantelaw or earlier mistakes - and they are sometimes confusing us. But did we do better this time? No. We did our best, we always do. But we can always do better than "just" our best. Just realize that it's another thing - and for us - YOU an ME to see and achieve.